2 years ago today I flew to Pakistan to meet my soulmate

He mirrored me, studied me, what I loved, songs I loved, he copied me and seemed like my perfect friend to go travelling with. He mirrored my body language, he asked me all about my life, my secrets, my past, my fears. All to use back at me as bargaining chips. He took up all of my day from early in the morning to late at night. I had to speak to him before sleeping and upon waking . A red flag right there. The easiest time to manipulate your brain is upon waking and just before sleep.

He was going to look after me. He was going to provide the best experience of life and help me heal my illness by finding cures. My soulmate, turned out I had just been brainwashed by a highly skilled manipulator because on Day 2 the trip turned into a nightmare and I spent 7 weeks living it. By myself, no support, my family cut off, he turned them away from me yet pretended he liked them and wanted them to come visit. I was lucky but I was also severely traumatised by that experience, suffering terrible ptsd from that. It made me understand my pattern throughout life was always with abusive Men, getting slowly worse.

I had to look at myself and why this kept occurring and I'm grateful to have done this inner work on myself. I am now FREE to be ME. Doing what I feel is right to teach other people of the dangers. To help other people heal after Narcissistic Abuse.